same old, same old~

Nothing new, still feeling rather sad at times and angry, but I think it's mellowing away now. I'm going through some exams at the moment, I hope I can do well in these. Life seems so dull at the moment, I want to go out with friends, but my studies keep getting in the way. However, I'm setting up paintball with all my friends, so that'll be rather interesting and fun for these holidays. Pray that it all goes well and that my planning doesn't go to waste. Also, I'm not going to attend Sydney BP church anymore, I feel as though their way of teaching isn't want I want. Not saying that they're wrong but it wasn't as attingent to me as the other churches which I attended. I think it's also 'cause my family didn't exactly meld with the other close families. It was like as if we were left out with Victor's family. The foundation of the church is too strong, it's like as if it were too strong to actually show some sort friendliness to the outside world.
I really don't want to get into too much details, but really bothers me. However, let me just clarify this before I go on, there is nothing wrong with the church, it's just that it doesn't meet my criteria.
Okay, so I noticed that when our pastor does his usual prayer before he starts his sermon, he kind of lists things which effect the world. However, when I listened more closely, he only prayed for the things which effected the church itself. He never prayed for Haiti, or any other worldy disasters which didn't effect the church or its Mother church. Although, they do do 30-in-30 (which is like a street evangelism type thing) those people have so many chances to actually take the initiative to go to God. The people in Haiti, everything was destroyed, many resort to stealing to feed their families. Many died due to debree falling upon them. I saw a documentary and like, the hospitals resorted to using hack-saws to actually amputate. The shit thing about that is that, infection and dirt will get inside. The document showed grotesque images of maggots coming out of wounds and shit like that. Don't these people deserve our prayers? They would probably be more willing to actually listen to us, rather than some of the people who live in this country.
Then I asked my friend what he/she thought about it (she goes to this church too), "They're not blessed." That really got me going, it's sooo aggrovating, like, they're not blessed?!!? WTF... Everyone is included as our brothers and sisters, it's just that some are lost, like the Prodigal son. If they're not blessed, then at one point we weren't either, but people prayed for our spiritual growth. If there wasn't any prayer for these other people, then how the hell is christianity going to grow? So, great, if I meet my non-christian friends, they're not blessed at all, okay, cool. "Yo, Eric, you're not blessed, brah." I have nothing against it, but not praying for them because they aren't blessed, is kinda stupid. This is why I'm never really going to go back to that church, it's too strict for me and the foundation is not what I seek it to be. At my last church, so many people went on mission, even some went on beach missions so that they didn't have to leave their jobs. The Linder family went to Thailand, my cousins Angeline and Simon went to Cambodia (they now stay there permanently) and many other families go on mission, leaving everything behind to go and tell people about God, because they don't have the chance to. I haven't heard of any missonaries at this church, nor any pushing for the church to actually go out there and share the gospel (and I don't mean Australia, I mean overseas).
*sigh* oh well, I guess I'll find one soon, but maybe I'll just stop going to church till HSC is over. I'm going to start Rep volleyball again soon, so mmmmmmmmmm >.>
I don't want this post to offend anyone at all, it wasn't intentional.

O genki desuka,
Warren