to fill the void~

I still feel the void of being unwanted, unloved and lonely. I stopped waiting for you a while ago. I thought time apart would bring you closer to me. But it proved to be the opposite. I know you don't want to see me anymore. It breaks my heart even more that I can't even have you as a friend. Even if you may never look to me again, I'll always be there to pick you up when you fall. I will always be there. I know you probably don't bother to read my blog anymore, but I can't tell you otherwise, because I hope you know and remember the person I was towards you. I'm sorry that it turned out this way. I honestly am. But I suppose you were right, we were just not meant to be. I hope you're happy wherever you are. You're always in my prayers. As for my void, I met some of the greatest people in my life. I've met a person who I think will change my life completely. I think this person will have such a great influence upon my life and I hope we can be great friends in the times to come. For this I thank you, you helped me realise how big the world is. How my love should be spent. I know you know that I was hurting, but it's getting better :) you don't need to worry about feeling useless in helping me feel better. I'm independent. I'm fine. I'm strong. I wish we can meet one day and start from the beginning. Until then, I wish you all the best.