just add salt~

I was thinking about a lot of things today. One of the main ones was what made me become what I am today. To me, it's all the friends I have made, all the mistakes I have learned from and above all, the love I have found through religion and the specific few people I have interacted with. But I feel like the way I act, is still like my childish-self, I always say sorry for the littlest things but I wish I never did anything to disobey or anything like that. Whenever someone mistakens me for something I feel like I need to learn how to express myself better, rather than replying in a childish-type manner (this has caused me to be in countless scenarios resulting in broken relationships). However, this may sound cliche' or crappy or even wanna-be goody goody type stuff, but I really dislike disappointing people. Seeing people so sad and angry, makes me feel so empty inside. It's like I want to be able to possess powers to cleanse the world of its iniquities, but I guess that's up to God to do. Then here comes the bad side of me, I've been influenced by countless friends to do things which I shouldn't of done. Many of which I won't name, but all of which I do regret. Some paths should've never been taken and have definitely left its mark within me and may very well never be erased. But all-in-all, it makes up to who I am today. Do I think I belong? Yes, I do. I have a great family and a lot of friends to support me. I wish I could always show my appreciation for all of you somehow, like just chuck ferraris at you all or something like that haha. But really, it's not about the money to express your feelings, it's about what you do to show how you feel about someone.
Right now, I feel crazy about you... haha don't know what's happening to me, but I feel like you're my other half, really. Why do we have so much in common?! I just don't get it. Like, sosososososo much in common. Gah >< seriously can't get you out of my head. Your hugs are so warm as well. <3 you ~~~~~~~~~~~~

O genki desuka,
Warren