benevolence~

We've been going out for 4 months now. I've loved every moment of it. She's made me feel so good all this time. She brought me out of the darkest hole in my life thus far. The times when I was angry, sad, alone and out of place, she was there. Why is it that she also must face these pety obstacles which I have faced before as well?

I remember those days... Especially when I felt that everything was screwed up. God wasn't there, no one was there. It was just an empty hole and me. Everyone in my eyes had a fault in them. Death even seemed like a viable choice.

Then I met you... despite even knowing you for only a few hours, you started to become a visible light, like a glimmering wave of light, you were different from the spectrums of light, because you appeared most bright to me.

Now, despite having you beside me, you're going through the same radical emotions as me. You leave those who are truly the closest to you outside. Those who care about you the most are now become more and more seen as obstacles.

I care about you so much. I don't want you to push me a away, like an broken, or unused toy. Please don't. Even we are still young and stuff, I feel like we're a mature couple. It's different from all my other relationships. It's only been 4 months and I feel so strong about us. I need you, I really do.

Please, don't push me away. I only mean for the best intentions for you.