you won't realise it til' it's gone~

it's pretty true, isn't it? The most important and even most of the subtle little things in your life can impact you when it has finally reached its expiration date. When your father and mother die, all the tender love and care and all those memories of you as a child will die with them. And then it hits you, yes sadness, but why? It's because we realise how much we love them and ultimately realise how much we need them as they perish into some other force of life. Remember that time when you were 4, and your dad used to pick you up and say to you "Here's ma boy/girl (Whichever you are) you're going to grow up into such an extraordinary person." Did you turn into that person he always wanted you to be? Possibly not, but that particular scene is not a fleeting memory. Dad has always been there to pick you up and say you did your best. When you get dumped by a bf/gf, when you fail an exam, when you're on the streets begging for money, he was there to pick you up and say, "it's alright kiddo..." Never again, will you have the pillar of strength that is your dad.
Mother... where have you been all my life? She has always been there. Changing your diapers, making your lunch ready for school and giving you a hug when you're balling your eyes out. Now that you're older, you don't think you need that. It's true, your mum doesn't change your diapers, make your lunch and give you big hugs... she changed your life, guiding you, making you into the person you are today, she still does give you big hugs, but you don't find them as sentimental as a hug from your gf. Neve again, will you have the pillar of change that is your mother.
Life on earth is so short, and every moment must be thought of with the mind and heart. The tree which I'm looking at right now. It was once a beautiful and lucious green tree, overgrown with ferns, branches and seeping sap from various holes in its sides. Now that its winter, it withers down. But as the winds blow, the leaves fall off in such a beautiful dance that it touches my soul again.
The most beautiful things in life are beautiful and wither down, but when it's gone you realise that you can live without it.

O genki desuka,
Warren