relinquishing of the past~

I feel like, I've been chasing an uncatchable entity, although I've been trying so hard to get you, I can't do anything. So only time will tell now. I will let you go off by yourself now. I will no longer contact you, unless it's something serious. However, I will make no opportunity to contact you to talk to you about something so measly as how uni is for you, etc. I should just let you go. Relinquish the comfort. Relinquish any comfort you have towards me, so that someday when we meet, I'll be fresh to you. I know many of the memories you will remember for life, but I somehow hope that you'll forget it all, so that you'll wonder how different we could be.

Life sure is wonderful, ain't it?

Well, let me just spill all I have to know on here about her.

I remember when I first caught glimpse of her in B block, whilst I was walking with Ivan, who stopped to talk to someone. When I saw her, I thought "Wow, she's so pretty, wish I could get to know her."
From then on, I made it my goal to get to know her. I did. Later on, I asked her out and she gladly accepted it. haha. So simple, yet, from that moment I laid eyes upon her, I knew she was different to any other girl I've ever met before in my life. I've never met such a woman in my life. She's not girly at all, in a sense that she clings so hard, nor does she act like a wimp. She had guts to do things guys wouldn't even dare to do. I loved that aspect of her. Everytime we went to the library together, I had goosebumps just talking to you haha. do you remember all those days? hahaha I'm tearing up as I type this.
After a few months, we already went on a family holiday to Queensland. I remember my family booked the tickets wrongly and went like a day earlier than you guys. But when you guys arrived... wow... I remember your happy face as we laid eyes upon such a beautiful place. I thought life couldn't get any better. We went to movie world, sea world and that water world. We share so many memories of those places. My love for you flourished even harder. When our time in Queensland ended, we were so happy, but unhappy to leave it behind. We had so much fun, didn't we? haha... Memories which I'll never forget. You were my first serious relationship and I'd never trade you for anything or anyone.
You were starting your HSC journey, and I was starting my uni life. I knew you were stressed and I always tried to be there for you during your stressful and tiring journey. We were both entering unknown territory. But we were always there for each other. We made it through, despite 2 breaks and my surgery. We made it through! We both made it through some of our biggest challenges to date.
From that time to now, we slowly grew too attached, and it led you to thinking we had nowhere to go and me being too attached to you too. I guess it's a lesson learnt for both of us. I guess I'll never know what is going to happen to us, until it actually presents itself. For now, it's separation. I just can't stand the fact that another guy is going to possibly take you, when I'm here just waiting for you realise how much I love you and willing to care for you. I guess I need to suppress those feelings and just let you go. And I'm going to do just that. I'm going to disappear from you for as long as I can manage, unless we need to talk about problems. But other than that... I'm not going to try. You're still my best friend. Don't forget that; I'm here for you every step of the way, but my love and care is no longer needed.

I love you so much, dear. I wish you nothing but the best.

Warren