not here~

Suffering is what makes us know we are human, and that we need something/someone to rely on when it comes to us being at our lowest. But it's when you realise that when you rely on people or a materialistic security, we begin to dig deeper into the void. When you realise that all this hard work you put in to find a way out of the hole only dug you deeper. When you realise that people are there to let you down, and it most likely was a person who caused you to feel disappointed, unloved, hated, lonely and angry. It is then that you realise, that when all else fails on you, it is you yourself who dug that hole for yourself. What then can we do to fill the void? To me, the void is unquenchable. The thirst of being accepted on a daily basis, the thirst of wanting to be loved, the thirst of seeking respect from others is just an excuse for us to encourage an egotistic escapade to falsify our image. Our image as people is heavily based upon civil society and popular culture - for the morals and ethics we adopt today mold humans into believing what is right and what is wrong. For you to become popular, you must do certain things to obtain it. For you to become 'cool,' you have to complete a certain amount of steps. But really, the conforming to the society of today, is to conform to the devil. Why is it that we have to change ourselves for the sake of others, why is it that we have to change ourselves so that others may accept us. Is it not like Adam and Eve? They chose to eat from the tree of knowledge. It was eve who wanted to conform to the morals of the devil. It was then that the influence of Eve towards Adam, that chose the fate of humanity - to dwell among the morals and ethics set by God, but influenced by the devil. Created in God's image, but tainted with the curse of being taunted by Satan as we walk along our paths on this world. I can safely say, that there is more to life than just this. There is more to life than just suffering and conformity. For me, there is something more special outside this world - that is God. Why be conform to the momentary happiness of this world, when what you truly seek is not here.